After a long-time

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Kai dino baad dekho, aaj dhoop nikli hai,
Neel aasman ke daaman mein, suraj muskuraya hai —
Jaise teri ek jhalak, jo dil ko roshan kar jaati hai...

Tumhare kaale baalon ke saaye se dhanka chehra,
Tumhari wo halki si muskurahat,
Wo sharmaana, wo ithlaana, wo nakhre —
Sab yaad hai mujhe...

Tum kyun nahi aa jaati wapas?
Haan, galti meri thi — maine tumhe samjha nahi...
Par galtiyon se seekhna hi to mohabbat ka sabak hai na jaan...,
Ab maaf bhi kar do...
Ab laut bhi aao na...

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