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Just as always

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My day started early, at 4 AM, on the 12th of August. My brother and I went for a walk to the Durga Maa temple nearby. We sat there for a while, talking about our next plans in life — what to do, where to go. Then, as always, we came back home and fell asleep again. Later, I woke up, nothing special — edited some clips, had breakfast, lunch, studied a little. But in the evening, I heard loud voices from upstairs. When I went up, I saw my mom scolding my sister. Instead of staying quiet, my sister was arguing back. I tried to stop them, but she turned her arguments toward me, so I went silent and left. About seven minutes later, I heard the situation had calmed down. Not long after, I got a call from my elder sister saying she would be visiting in two days. Everyone got excited. We talked for a bit, and then I went up to the rooftop to enjoy the sky, but my mind wouldn’t settle. The next day began the same way, except we had to wash all the clothes, bedsheets, and clean the whole house....
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Day that needs to solve ::

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  Dear Diary, Today was strange. A mix of interesting moments, little risks, boring stretches, and a kind of stress that lingered quietly in the background. It wasn’t the kind of stress that makes you panic — more like a low, constant hum in the mind that doesn’t let you rest completely. The morning started unusually early — 4 AM. My brother and I decided to go for a walk to the nearest temple. The streets were silent, the air still cool from the night. I’ve always liked mornings like this; they feel like the world hasn’t woken up yet. We spent around half an hour there, talking about everything — how life is going, how she betrayed us, and how we can stop ourselves from falling too deep into sadness or depression. My brother spoke slowly, almost like he was choosing his words carefully. I listened, sometimes nodding, sometimes staring into the temple lights. In the background, my Spotify playlist played softly, as if it was the soundtrack to this quiet moment. We came home around ...
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( ・_ゝ・)

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 Dear Diary, A portion of beeing worse these days...  It’s been so many days since I last wrote. Not because I forgot, but because life has been throwing challenges at me one after another. I don’t know how this will end — only God knows, and maybe that’s enough for now. Lately, I’ve been keeping a physical diary, but I feel I didn’t write it well. It was supposed to capture my journey — my life — but even I’m questioning if things were worse than I thought. The truth is, I’ve been surrounded by problems — family issues, academic pressure, friendships falling apart, even physical struggles. I didn’t know who to share all this with, so, as always, I turned to writing. One of my best friends — the one I truly believed was different, better than most people these days — proved me wrong. Deep down, I always feared this day might come, and it finally did. She left. She ignored us, our feelings, our emotions. And I still don’t understand why. She left my brother — the same brother s...
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👉👈🥺

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 Ek yaadon se bhari raat hogi... 🌙🥀 Tera haath mere haath me hoga... ✨ Wahi purani milne ki jagah hogi, Wahi purani yaadein hongi… 💭💔 Par is baar na tu kuch kehna, Na mai kuch kahunga… Aaj baatein sirf hamari aankhein karne dena… 👀✨ Lana saath ek kagaz aur ek kalam, Main bhi launga ek kagaz aur kalam… 📝💙 Beshak baatein hamari aankhein karengi, Par jo gile-shikwe hain, unko likhna tum uss kagaz pe… 💭💔 Main bhi likhunga, magar is baar jhagde nahi honge, Ek naav banayenge usi kagaz ki… 🚣‍♂️💙 Aur uss naav ko behne denge uss nadhi me, Jitna wo aage badhegi, utne hi dukh mit jayenge… 💦🚢 Ek nayi shuruaat karenge… Bina shikwa, bina gila kee… 💙✨
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🫤😮‍💨🤔

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 😮‍💨😮‍💨 Main kya kar raha hoon, kyun kar raha hoon, kya soch raha hoon, kya plan hai, kya chahta hoon... mere mann mein kya chal raha hai—mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha hai. Raat ko der tak jagta hoon, na padh raha hoon, na kahin bahar ja raha hoon. Main kisse kya bol raha hoon, mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha. Main itna kyun soch raha hoon, aakhirkar main chahta kya hoon—ye bhi samajh nahi aa raha. Jyada kisi se baat nahi kar paata, aisa nahi hai ki karna nahi chahta, par log nahi milte. Waise bhi, kisko kya bataun? Samajh mein hi nahi aata. Koi poochhe, "Kaise ho? Kaisi chal rahi hai padhai?" to main unse jhooth bol raha hoon. Main bol hi kyun raha hoon? Main keh kyun nahi deta? Naa jaane ye sab isi time pe kyun hona tha... Mera mann kahin aur hai, dhyan kahin aur hai... Main chahta kuch aur hoon, aur ho kuch aur raha hai. Ab to ye bhi samajh nahi aa raha ki jo kar raha hoon, wo sahi bhi hai ya nahi... Raat ko der tak jagna aur unn kaale aasmaanon mein sitaaron ke beech ...
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....(^_^;) 2

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 I thought everything was fine 🙂, but it turned out to be just a fleeting dream. Yesterday, I realized this wasn’t the end—it was just the beginning of another side of the problem. And trust me, it feels terrible... I can't explain much, but I hope for the best. Maybe by the end of this week, things will settle again. Thanks to my siblings, who are still handling this carefully. This situation is so bad that I can’t even focus on my studies at home. My elder sister, who is preparing for UPSC, is taking charge of things. Meanwhile, I, who knows everything and is directly involved in the situation, was the first one in the family to figure it out and carefully explain it to my elder sister. I feel drained—no energy left for studies. Just exhausting days one after another. I tried my best, but nothing is working, and now my studies are suffering. 😭😭 For the past week, my mental health has been terrible. I had a fever of 102°F, but I didn’t tell my parents the real reason. My health...
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....(^_^;)

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 Dil ki baat Anzan ke saath mai aapka swagat haiii.... At first, thank you to everyone... Honestly, I am feeling lost and exhausted as exam days are approaching. I am becoming more nervous, anxious, and running out of time, unable to do anything properly. I create plans every day but end up ruining them. One thing I’ve learned is that no plan works perfectly. Instead of making rigid, ideal plans, it's better to write down the problems and focus on realistic solutions. Flexibility and problem-solving matter more than a flawless plan. I don’t know whom to talk to about this. The last few days have been tough for me, and I can't believe what happened within my family. Thankfully, most of the family tensions—ones my parents and elders don't even know about—got solved with the help of some siblings. But my main problem is my studies. I want to study, but my mind feels stuck, and I feel lost about what to do and what not to do. This is a terrible time for a break, yet I feel like...
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