Dreams, Distractions, and Determination๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜ต‍๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ˜ต‍๐Ÿ’ซ

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 Ahhhhhhh,

This is too much! I feel exhausted, nervous, overwhelmed, and hopeless.

I don't know why this keeps happening to me—it’s so draining. Whenever I make a plan, someone interrupts me with household tasks. I feel guilty about refusing because I don’t want anyone to think I’m disrespectful or a bad person. But it’s suffocating.

Sharing Some Recent Actions:

I made a plan last night and woke up early today, feeling prepared to study. I freshened up, organized my desk, and just as I started studying, my mom came and asked me to boil milk for her since she was running late for school (she’s a teacher). I thought, "Okay, this won’t take much time," so I got up and did it.

But then, after 30 minutes, my dad needed tea and breakfast. Again, I stepped away to help. Just as I finished, he returned after a while, asking for more help. I was left wondering if I’d even get a chance to study today.

I feel overwhelmed ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ซ and stuck because I can’t say no. I think to myself, "If I help them now, maybe they’ll help me someday when I need it." So I end up doing tasks for everyone—relatives, strangers—without a second thought.

Yesterday, I spent an hour and a half at late night on researching chemistry lectures. I even discussed it with my online friend to finalize the perfect plan for studying. But today, when I sat down to study at 9 am, the endless tasks started again. I couldn’t stick to my plan, and the day turned into a cycle of exhaustion and frustration.

work that assigned to me 3 more to do.

I’ve come to terms with the fact that whenever I create a plan, the first day of action will always be overwhelming, tiring, and chaotic. ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜ณ๐Ÿ˜ณ


"Sapne bade, kaam bhi bade, ๐Ÿ“

Lekin zindagi ne bola, ‘ruk zara, dekhe!’ ๐Ÿ•’

Himmat hai ab bhi dil ke kone mein, ❤️

Koshish rahegi, naye savere mein." ๐ŸŒ…✨

(By A.kumar...๐Ÿ˜‰)

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