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Ahhhhhhh, This is too much. I feel exhausted, nervous, overwhelmed, and hopeless. I don’t know why this keeps happening to me—it’s incredibly draining. Whenever I make a plan, someone interrupts me with household tasks. I feel guilty refusing because I don’t want anyone to think I’m disrespectful or a bad person. But honestly, it feels suffocating. Sharing Some Recent Actions Last night, I made a proper plan and woke up early today, feeling ready to study. I freshened up and organized my desk, and just as I sat down to begin, my mom came and asked me to boil milk for her because she was getting late for school (she’s a teacher). I thought, “Okay, this won’t take much time.” So I got up and did it. But then, after about 30 minutes, my dad needed tea and breakfast. Once again, I stepped away to help. Just as I finished, he returned after a while, asking for more help. At that point, I started wondering if I would even get a chance to study today. I felt completely overwhelmed 😩😫 and s...

Disclaimer Yeh blog Hinglish mein likha gaya hai, kyunki mujhe lagta hai ki Hinglish emotions aur feelings ko zyada naturally convey karti hai. Kahaan se shuru karun, samajh nahi aa raha. Kuch din pehle maine ek novel ka chapter padha tha— “Yahi Sach Hai.” Yeh chapter mere dil ke kaafi kareeb hai. Maine ise teen baar padha hai, aur har baar kuch naya sikhne ko mila. Waise, yeh novel mujhe meri badi didi ne diya tha, aur unka favorite chapter bhi yehi hai. Is chapter ki kuch lines mujhe bahut pasand aayi, jaise: “फिर अठारह वर्ष की आयु में किया हुआ प्यार भी कोई प्यार होता है भला! निरा बचपन होता है, महज पागलपन! उसमें आवेश रहता है पर स्थायित्व नहीं, गति रहती है पर गहराई नहीं। जिस वेग से वह आरम्भ होता है, जरा-सा झटका लगने पर उसी वेग से टूट भी जाता है। … और उसके बाद आहों, आँसुओं और सिसकियों का एक दौर, सारी दुनिया की निस्सारता और आत्महत्या करने के अनेकानेक संकल्प, और फिर एक तीखी घृणा। जैसे ही जीवन को दूसरा आधार मिल जाता है, उन सबको भूलने में एक दिन भी नहीं लगता। तब एकाएक एहसास होता है कि...

Disclaimer: This blog is written in Hinglish because I believe that Hinglish conveys feelings better.  Aisa nahi hai ki main dost banana nahi chahta, par main thoda sa darta aur ghabrata hoon. Kabhi-kabhi lagta hai ki jisko maine apna dost maana, kahin woh mujhe dhoka na de de. Isi darr ki wajah se, aaj se lagbhag 8 mahine pehle , maine ek ladki ko dekha tha. Mujhe usse baat karni thi, par ghabrahat aur logon ke darr ki wajah se main peeche hat gaya. Face-to-face baat karne ke bajay, maine usse online chat karna shuru kiya. Mere hisaab se, woh mujhe sabse achhi dost lagti hai. Jab bhi usse baat karta hoon, mann halka ho jaata hai. Kabhi-kabhi mann karta hai ki bas usse gale laga kar thank you bol doon—har us cheez ke liye jo maine usse seekhi hai. ❤️ Woh mujhse chhoti hai, par baatein badi-badi karti hai. Uske saath ek alag hi vibe hai. Mujhe hamesha ek aise dost ki zarurat thi jo samjhe aur guide kare—and woh bilkul aisi hi hai. Kabhi-kabhi maine usse kuch offensive reels...

Every new year gives us a fresh start—a chance to reflect and make changes. But let’s be honest: how many of us actually stick to those promises? We try, we fail, and sometimes we repeat the same mistakes. This time, I want to do better, and it all starts with small steps . This year, I looked back at my past mistakes and successes. While I made many errors, I also learned from them. I realized that even the worst days teach us something, and those lessons quietly help us grow. I don’t have a big circle of friends, but my joint family is my biggest strength. They are supportive, loving, and—yes—a little annoying at times! Living in a village means a simpler life, but it’s a life I’ve slowly learned to appreciate. Interestingly, some of my closest connections are my online friends . There’s a girl I met on Instagram—she’s wise beyond her years and always seems to know the right thing to say. She’s taught me that even the smallest kind words can make a big difference. This year, I feel ...