Dev || Mevibeswriter

 Shaayad, main ab nahi jaanta, Na samajhta hoon, na maanta hoon... Phir bhi jaane kyun, Tere aane ka intezaar karta hoon... Main anjaan hoon — Tere alfaazon se, tere khayalon se, Tere haal se, teri duniya se... Bas dekhna chahta hoon tujhe, Jee bhar ke — ek dafa, Bina kuch kahe, bas mehsoos karna chahta hoon. Tu kaisi hai, ye bhi nahi jaanta, Par har din yehi sochta hoon... Tu kyun nahi aa jaati ab? Laut aa na... Mera vishwas bhi ab dheere-dheere tutne laga hai... Main nahi jaanta kyun... Bas itna jaanta hoon — Shaayad, main sirf anjaan hoon...

 After a long time i writing again...... Actually i don't remember last time when i wrote. Last some days are feels unusal like again thinking about her. Talking with my brother about her she was my friend only but my brother's girlfriend and like i just lost my choice... she was not good for us.... So i gess it was last August when i was writing and today its October 23rd when i am writing... I just spent more tine with family... Last durga puja was happiest moment at taht time.. We just used many types of jhulas in fair... i enjoyed each and every moment.... I was not sure about anything still i just spended my time with family... and i don't have any friends actually so till now I'm finding friends offline.. but i found some interesting buddies online we never met but still we all talk together and trust each other.... Recently i rented aroom for my studies with my brothers... Actually still I'm in my own district and just I'm trying to study and get focused ...